I stalled. I ran into challenges and instead of meeting them head on, I stalled. I thought the problems were too big to tackle. They weren’t. I just didn’t want to think about them. I was tired. I started facing issues on so many fronts,personal and professional, that I just decided to stop the largest onslaughts. That actually isn’t a bad strategy for the short term, but it’s August 2014, and I felt like I did at the beginning of last year.
I read an interesting article about willpower the other day. Essentially the article said, its not that we don’t have the willpower to stop smoking or start exercising, it’s we run out of willpower by the time we get to those bigger decisions. I ‘ran out’ of the willpower to fight the good fight and press on.I am an avid fan of Getting Things Done by David Allen. It’s a shame I didn’t actually follow through on projects and next actions for about ten months up until this post. David often speaks of rabbit trails. You start with an idea, which leads to another, which leads to another, and if you are a procrastinator, like I sometimes am, you happily run down those trails which lead to nowhere, chasing rabbits.
It started with the website. Many functions of the website weren’t working properly. I started to research the problems, which led me to dislike the design. Yes I know all of these things are minor in comparison to, let’s say, making some damn chess sets, and checkers, but I was hunting wabbits. Then I had an idea for a product. Well, two products. OK seven. I pursued each one with gusto, until a faced a challenge. Maybe it was manufacturing, or what was a marketing message. I don’t really recall except that when i ran into a bump in the road, I just moved on to a different project. I even stopped posting. The posting helped me clear my head and refocus.
I needed to refocus. I stared re reading my previous posts. I remember saying this as I read this post.
Make. Just. One.
So I can feel it coming back. My words from the past, guiding a new future. So I am back at it. I give myself 10 days. Two molds a day.